I constantly feel that I actually need to try to be a friend. I don’t seem to understand why it’s so difficult sometimes. Shouldn’t this kinda stuff be effortless? There’s complications and most of the time I just feel like the friend is just too good for me. Sheesh. I don’t get why I always feel like….an option. Not just a friend…Just the guy to talk to when none of your real friends are around or if they’re just too busy. In some other cases, I feel like I need to be something else. I feel like I need to fill a certain stereotype, talk like this, and do this crap to chill with homies. It’s like….all of a sudden my closest friends became a clique that I don’t really seem to fit in. I’ve been getting some low blows from people. Like…..damn. I’m sorry I ain’t cool or good enough for you people. But, whatever doe. I gotta be by myself this time.