December 2011
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Honestly, you have no idea how unfair and messed up things get for me. I see you as loved from everyone around us. I wish we never had the same friends. Because all those friends never seem to take my side. They always aid and support you. I, on the other hand, get sarcastic jokes, insults, and harsh criticism.
Sometimes, I wish I could leave and just start a new life and invite new people in it....
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My game plan for 2012...
Being emotionless and not giving a crap. This means….no disappointments, no guilt, no worry, no problems. Easy as that.
Every fault will always end up being mine.
Somehow, it’s always me who should actually be blamed for something bad happening. I never have a good reason to blame anyone else. In the end, someone will realize it was actually me who screwed things up again. I’m always the bad guy. I’m always making the mistakes. I just never win.
I think this is why i'm always depressed and...
uncensoredlips:
i really trust no one. fuck you all. :)
Vent.
rhonettemanlapig:
If you’re ashamed about our friendship, just tell me. So I could stop looking like an idiot. Shit.
I have every right to stay away from you still.
But honestly, I think I owe you a genuine apology.
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Sickest People of the Day goes to....
all you Kobe fans.
Who is there left to trust?
michellojello:
Everyone’s either hurt you, lied to you, back stabbed you, played you, left you, took advantage of you, took you for granted, forgot you, talked shit about you, and overall changed. There’s really no one left to talk to. No one left to stay by your side. No one left to comfort you. No one left to listen to your problems. No one left to listen to your vents. No one left to trust....
At least momma apologized. Donating the stained clothes and possibly buying new gifts.
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Bleach accidents.
I understand filling a bottle with bleach and putting in the bathroom. But, filling a bottle that says “Lysol: Fabric Mist” with bleach is by far the dumbest shit ever. My mom always complains my room smells so I decide to spray a little on my couch that apparently had some clothes on it. NOW, I need to buy a new black hoodie (oh btw, I just got this black hoodie 3 days ago) AND new...
new year's eve 2008: this was the worst year ever, i hope 2009 is better
new year's eve 2009: this was the worst year ever, i hope 2010 is better
new year's eve 2010: this was the worst year ever, i hope 2011 is better
new year's eve 2011: this was the worst year ever, i hope 2012 is better
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I only gave up because, again, I didn’t want to be the only one giving effort into keeping things the same. I’ve made a fool out myself once. I won’t make myself a fool, again. For once, I’d like to see someone else show some effort into friendships/relationships. If you wouldn’t do that, then buh bye to you…don’t expect me to hit you up, talk to you, or...
That feeling
kevinmanansala:
When you know it hurts you , but makes it easier for the person . I think it’s the worst feeling anyone’s heart can endure
everyone knows real sneakerheads wear sneakers on...
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Things I shake my head at:
-groups of Spanish kids who all wear the same pair of Jordans
-guys who have a girlfriend that’s taller than themselves
-kids who bump Drake so hard (I don’t care if you know the lyrics to the motto)
-my little brother being a baby over the tiniest things
-people who suddenly care about me when I finally decide to leave
-kids who wear Jordan shirts to match their Jordans (no typa...
I only plan on giving Christmas gits to 4 people. But anyways…..get a Stussy shirt for me :)
I just had the nicest dream ever. Hooray for naps.
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The only thing I know I need to give this Christmas season is forgiveness. I really can’t just hand it out it out on a silver platter, though. Even if it’s still to hard to let go of a grudge, I really have no choice but to get rid of it. Especially, if I replaced a grudge with a good friendship. I’m sure I had enough time get over things. I know it’s still hard for me, but...
Anonymous asked: Your so ugly. You should be the last one talking shit about other people like a bitch. Your fat and musty so stop trying to be cool
Holidays.
Christmas is coming pretty soon and the year will end before I even know it. I don’t what happened to me that I don’t look forward to the holidays, now. Maybe too much seems to happen in my life. Or, maybe too many thoughts seem to cloud my mind. Or, maybe I’m just getting too old to be all excited. I don’t even know what I want for Christmas. Nothing really seems to...
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Fantasy Basketball.
Planning your draft picks is a lot of work. I guess it’s a good thing I watch a lot of NBA TV. Now, I know who to look out for and have an eye on for my team. I got this!
lemonadecollege:
I wish there was a way to make your phone ignore all messages, and only notify you when the person you actually want to talk to texts you. Unfortunately, I have a dumb phone.
Sunday Checklist
-Wake up: check
-Say happy birthday to the greatest girl ever: check
-find a ride to church: check
-Eat breakfast:
-Take shower and get dressed:
-Church:
i think i'm going to restart friendships
elisharuth-ramos:
im tired of holding grudges
WatchJammin out on a Saturday morning. Wack sound quality though. Whatever, I need to practice.
And for an instant moment, everything seemed to be popping up back in my head. I didn’t wana think about it, but I honestly couldn’t stop myself. In this moment, my bitterness, hatred, and resent seemed to subside. It was a feeling I haven’t felt since last year. It was some sort of feeling of forgiveness and content. It was like a kick of motivation to start fixing things. I...
Eh. Caught myself again..
I knew I’d stumble upon something that would make me think things over again. And yup…here I am wondering if everything is actually right and if everything is in its correct place. Where do I begin when I completely forgot where I even left off? What do I do when I’m all of a sudden resentful again? Whatever. I guess I should’ve never opened up my memory box. Now I question...
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I'm so messed up.
I have the most messed up, a$$hole thoughts. I sort of feel bad for you. Eh….not really. lol.
graasielle:
It doesn’t mean that much to me to mean that much to you.